After my first year of marriage I
started noticing some bad habits forming. Late night eating (I wanted to eat
with my husband), Cozy movie nights (Pizza, ice cream and all the toppings),
and lack of self-control. After a while you stop noticing these bad habits and
it becomes second nature. I started to buy new clothes all the time as I
continued to get heavier. I tried the tread mill after work from time to time
but found it boring. Then I got pregnant with my first child. I was about 4
months a long when I found out that my younger sister was dying from kidney
failure. I was very close to her and this news was devastating. I developed
high blood pressure and had Precambrian in the last trimester of my pregnancy.
My sister passed away 12 days from my son’s birth. During this time I was very
depressed. My depression went into my delivery and after birth. I had a
C-section after 16 hrs of delivery. Then after he was born I incurred an
infection where I had to pack the incision for a month. This caused a lot of
scar tissue and through the years I only kept getting heavier on into my second
pregnancy. I never sought after help with depression and anxiety after dealing
with it for 2 years. I was on medication for 1 year and never felt better. I
still felt the same. I would yo yo with trying new things to keep me active but
never felt like I could sustain the work out. I was heavy so everything jiggled
and I couldn't ever breath. I just kept buying new clothes. I was always
self-conscious of my weight but still didn't know how to change my old and
warring habits.
Till one day I was asked to help
teach the 6th graders at the elementary school in my home town how to swing
dance and the dance Thriller. I did so and when it came to the performance and
dance I couldn't wait to party with the kids. I danced like I was in college
when I was healthy and fit. Accept when I got home I was sick, I couldn't stand
to shower or even sit up. My head was pounding and I was very dizzy. I decided
then that who I was in side was not what was reflected on the outside. I was
very unhappy. My depression and anxiety got worse. I started to stare at walls
and it was hard to get motivated. Till one day my son pointed at a picture of
me on my wedding day and he asked in pure innocence "Mommy why is your
belly so full not flat like the picture"? That was the day I got serious
and decided to take matters into my own hands. I started a workout class and
changed my eating habits. I also went to bed earlier and started to drink more
water. I increased my veggies and fruit and less eating of desserts. In the
first month I dropped 7 lbs from there I was so happy. I went from a size 20 to
and 18 then into a 16. I lost over all 1-2 lb a week. It took me over a year to
get to my goal weight. Over a two year span I lost 90 lbs. I didn't do this
accomplish my new life style change by only changing nutrition or exercise I re
awakened my 5 Senses: Sleep Nutrition, Hydration, Fitness, and Relaxation (less
stress). I wanted to DO SOMETHING FOR MY SELF. No one else just me!
These are Pictures of me at my heaviest weight. Start weight before my JOURNEY @ 221 lb.
These are Pictures of me at my heaviest weight. Start weight before my JOURNEY @ 221 lb.
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